Identify.
I moved into my very own apartment, alone, about 2 weeks ago. I found out very quickly that being alone isn’t something I prefer. I have always been a social person. The majority of time spent alone since I was a baby until the present were in sleeping hours.
I began to analyze this semi-constant need to be around people.
I don’t mean I go to Target and walk around just to be surrounded by people. Nothing creepy like that. But I have a desire in my heart, my being, to be around my family and now more so, my friends.
I thought of the pros and cons of this behavior and what it means for me to feel this way most of the time. I know most who read this probably have key words flashing in their minds like “insecure” or “scared”. And honestly, that’s what I had initially thought too.
I’ve come to the conclusion that it really is just pretty simple with me. Not everyone finds it easy to talk to people, to listen, to truly care. God gave me a gift/quality that I value now more than ever. I can talk to people. I can talk to anyone. And I can listen. About anything. And truly, truly care about what is being said. I have a compassionate heart that has made me naive but I’ll take it. My heart loves people. My heart loves the company of people. My heart wasn’t made to be alone. I have too many things to share with the world. The world has too many things to share with me. I don’t want to miss a moment of it.
I still value my alone time. That time that I talk and listen to my God. But ultimately, He tells me to get out there and share my heart with the world. That there are too many people who have not seen my heart. Too many hearts that I haven’t seen. And too many people that want to be a part of my heart weather I’m right there with them, or sitting at home, alone, in my apartment.
I do love Grey’s Anatomy, but the original video for this song is not available to copy anywhere else from YouTube. This is the only one. Completely unintentional. Just listen to the words. You’ll see the connection.
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